Keen on Talking

Dear bloggity,
seems like ages since I called you that. Now I just refer to you as my companion, I suppose, but I rarely say it. I'm not very effectionate :)
I feel like this moment was taken from a movie scene - as if this huge change is going to happen soon, something that will alter my life. Maybe it's  only the fact that I regained my independance and can now have full control of everything that is mine. Control freak, that I am.  I can't say that these two weeks have been easy, but I do say I enjoyed the ride. I got closer to a person I care about, which can either result in something tragic or in something that can lest forever; and Im sure it's the latter. Not because I don't have any faith in what we have, but because even faith can't change reality. Another person I care about is leaving, and it's painful to think I'm the one left behind. I'm stuck with the same room, the same school, the same place she's been and I'm stuck with feeling her presence behind everything I touch. I know it's painful to let go, but I will never regret any moment we had. In those romantic cheesy movies they always say that love is painful, but is worth the ride. I can't agree to that extend, but I can agree with living each moment and not looking back with sorrow. Did you know that I will sort of be in college next year? Yeah, tell me about it. It's weird that this school will be the only school. The school. The school I graduate it. I love this school, in spite of all it's....backlashed crowd. Although most of the friends I care about are leaving, I am looking forward to next year. It's still early to say it, and I do have exams to go through, but I feel like it's time for me to accept the change and know that no matter happens, I'll make the best of it. The maturity I gained is sometimes ruined by inky traces of childhood memories, of wanting to still be a child. That's why I'm a teenager.

I think I rattled on enough.
Wish me luck, there, bloggy. Wish me luck.
Stars demand attention,
Kelly :)