I don't mean drugs.
I mean getting high in happiness. Just happiness.
Just happy.
No more then happiness in my fucking heart
FUCK EVERYTHING, HAPPINESS IS THE KEY !
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Fear of Change
Change is scary. Especially if you know that the outcome of that change could be bad.
Your scared, unsure. Change is signficant. Like decisions.
Some changes are barely noticeable, while others are life changing. I am not going to categorize all of them, because I am most asured that we all lived through all of them.
If I say this word over and over again, I wonder why I fear it. Why does it make me unsure, nervous, fearful and confused?
I figured out a game plan. Yes, a game plan. Its so totally-spies of me, but I drawed it out. Yes, I drawed my fear down.
Basically, theres a huge spider-chart and in it is the word 'Life'. I drew lines out of it and wrote everything about life. Time, change, emotions, people, surrondings, mortality and age. Everything.
Its a big chart, you can guess. Each of the things in this chart scared me because of the huge impact they have on me. Reaching no conclusion to why I did this or why after I did it I started writing this, I am simply going to say that fear is pointless.
You may have minutes,hours or years to live and how will it help you to fear everything that is on my life spider chart? Will it help, will it not? Will it make you realize your mistakes, your moves?
Maybe. Maybe not.
I did it just to think of everything that I am, that is and that was. I feel tiny, insignficant. Thoerizing this spider chart of life, trying to sum up words of how to describe everything when I obviously can't.
So I think of it, and decide it doesn't matter.
Why? Because it does,of course, matter. The matter is that it can't be solved.
Humans, deal with it.
Humans need answers to go through life and when there is no answers they either ignore the question or either persist there is.
I say there isn't and its better that way. Life would be way too simple if we had this answers. I know easier is the better and that its more convient because I am human too, but easier is not the answer because it gains nothing. Do you feel better if you did a quick project which you copied -pasted and your teacher gave you a -D on, or a project which you fully put yourself in, your hardwork and your knowledge?
I lot of lazyass people will choose the first one and tell me to fuck off. I won't, because the truth is easier is no effort but is...easier. But you most be aware that it gains nothing - no mistakes, no problems solved, and no discoveries.
That was quite a range of topics I felt I needed to discuss. I always think of more and ALWAYS keep forgetting. Don't worry though. Its not like anyone cares =))
P.S Amazing writers inspire me, and I can't believe the amount of talented authors and writers there are out there. Shoutout to all of you.
Peanut butter jelly time,
hugs and pineapples.
Kelly
Your scared, unsure. Change is signficant. Like decisions.
Some changes are barely noticeable, while others are life changing. I am not going to categorize all of them, because I am most asured that we all lived through all of them.
If I say this word over and over again, I wonder why I fear it. Why does it make me unsure, nervous, fearful and confused?
I figured out a game plan. Yes, a game plan. Its so totally-spies of me, but I drawed it out. Yes, I drawed my fear down.
Basically, theres a huge spider-chart and in it is the word 'Life'. I drew lines out of it and wrote everything about life. Time, change, emotions, people, surrondings, mortality and age. Everything.
Its a big chart, you can guess. Each of the things in this chart scared me because of the huge impact they have on me. Reaching no conclusion to why I did this or why after I did it I started writing this, I am simply going to say that fear is pointless.
You may have minutes,hours or years to live and how will it help you to fear everything that is on my life spider chart? Will it help, will it not? Will it make you realize your mistakes, your moves?
Maybe. Maybe not.
I did it just to think of everything that I am, that is and that was. I feel tiny, insignficant. Thoerizing this spider chart of life, trying to sum up words of how to describe everything when I obviously can't.
So I think of it, and decide it doesn't matter.
Why? Because it does,of course, matter. The matter is that it can't be solved.
Humans, deal with it.
Humans need answers to go through life and when there is no answers they either ignore the question or either persist there is.
I say there isn't and its better that way. Life would be way too simple if we had this answers. I know easier is the better and that its more convient because I am human too, but easier is not the answer because it gains nothing. Do you feel better if you did a quick project which you copied -pasted and your teacher gave you a -D on, or a project which you fully put yourself in, your hardwork and your knowledge?
I lot of lazyass people will choose the first one and tell me to fuck off. I won't, because the truth is easier is no effort but is...easier. But you most be aware that it gains nothing - no mistakes, no problems solved, and no discoveries.
That was quite a range of topics I felt I needed to discuss. I always think of more and ALWAYS keep forgetting. Don't worry though. Its not like anyone cares =))
P.S Amazing writers inspire me, and I can't believe the amount of talented authors and writers there are out there. Shoutout to all of you.
Peanut butter jelly time,
hugs and pineapples.
Kelly
Dear Bloggy Blog
Haven't posted in a while, have I?
(no answer)
hello?!
(echos)
Sigh. Not again.
Considering my life statues, I was..busy. Real life doesn't have music surrounding my every move with me singing high school musical songs.
Life has me facing real problems and putting my iPod so I can't pretend they are not there.
Don't you go all 'You're so sad', 'Pathetic creature' and 'I got free pity for you, gal'.
Quite frankly, I don't care. My moment of elbration, of not caring is my moment of life.
That fraze keeps bugging in my head, " Live now, life is short" and I know its short.
Question is if it is so short, and I need to live life NOW, then should I care about anything at all?
How does 'living life to the fullest' apply to me if I do my homework or face dilemmas of what to do with my hair?
Questioning life is pointless and stupid. Instead of looking for an answer or waiting for one you could be living a precious moment of life.
Short post for my non too inspiring moment.
Hopefully I'll improve my vocabulary and spelling soon.
Toasts to all of you, with 1% butter
XoXo undoubtedly unforgetable XoXo
ME!
(no answer)
hello?!
(echos)
Sigh. Not again.
Considering my life statues, I was..busy. Real life doesn't have music surrounding my every move with me singing high school musical songs.
Life has me facing real problems and putting my iPod so I can't pretend they are not there.
Don't you go all 'You're so sad', 'Pathetic creature' and 'I got free pity for you, gal'.
Quite frankly, I don't care. My moment of elbration, of not caring is my moment of life.
That fraze keeps bugging in my head, " Live now, life is short" and I know its short.
Question is if it is so short, and I need to live life NOW, then should I care about anything at all?
How does 'living life to the fullest' apply to me if I do my homework or face dilemmas of what to do with my hair?
Questioning life is pointless and stupid. Instead of looking for an answer or waiting for one you could be living a precious moment of life.
Short post for my non too inspiring moment.
Hopefully I'll improve my vocabulary and spelling soon.
Toasts to all of you, with 1% butter
XoXo undoubtedly unforgetable XoXo
ME!
Friday, January 1, 2010
New Year, Folks!
So since i have accomplished nothing except in 2009, I sure hope 2010 will be better.
Please don't start with the oh-two-more-years-we're-gonna-die thing, kay?
I don't really think death is that funny. Anywhos, I don't want to look back to what was, don't want to look forward to what will because I base my posts on this shit and honestly - I need new topics.
Though its new years, I don't exactly know what to say. May you have the best of the start? May you accomplish everything you wish for? Its too over-said and done. I need basic shit.
Be happy.
Whether its money, love, family or not-so-secret celebrity crush - cough, cough- , be sure your happy.
Hell, you could live on the streets and be happy cuz that's whats it about.
Smile - and NOT in a fucking online way.
Smile with your own face and get your butt out of typing '=))' or ':)' ten times cuz when its on your lips its way effing better.
Am I a sensitive person? maybe. Its a side of myself that I have yet to admit. Writing is just a form of art for me and its possible I transmit through it much more emotion then i am willing to recognize.
Flicker of hope to never die,
Happy new effin year!
- Your beloved and most dearly, Kelly
Please don't start with the oh-two-more-years-we're-gonna-die thing, kay?
I don't really think death is that funny. Anywhos, I don't want to look back to what was, don't want to look forward to what will because I base my posts on this shit and honestly - I need new topics.
Though its new years, I don't exactly know what to say. May you have the best of the start? May you accomplish everything you wish for? Its too over-said and done. I need basic shit.
Be happy.
Whether its money, love, family or not-so-secret celebrity crush - cough, cough- , be sure your happy.
Hell, you could live on the streets and be happy cuz that's whats it about.
Smile - and NOT in a fucking online way.
Smile with your own face and get your butt out of typing '=))' or ':)' ten times cuz when its on your lips its way effing better.
Am I a sensitive person? maybe. Its a side of myself that I have yet to admit. Writing is just a form of art for me and its possible I transmit through it much more emotion then i am willing to recognize.
Flicker of hope to never die,
Happy new effin year!
- Your beloved and most dearly, Kelly
Change & Life
The dictionary is full of words, but none describe life such as this one.
Change.
Staring at the stars I wonder whats behind them - whats behind us
I don't know whats behind me, nor do I know whats infront of me
I live by the minute, terrified of time's next move
Unknowingly making the move myself.
Life is written by others so many times,
describes as a passage or a gate we need to get to, or discover
I'll tell you what you need to know about life.
You don't need to know anything.
Fuck my phylosphies and others, fuck everything. Instead of playing hide-and-seek, instead of guessing everything thats surronding us, instead of doubting the essence of our creation
just live
just feel
just..enjoy life. don't think about it, it should come naturaly - and it does.
You only ignore it
Look at who you are and appriciate it.
I am tired and exhausted of tring to think and think and think. its because i don't need to.
come join me if you want because im pretty lonely over here.
come and live with me, come and just laugh at the absurdity of everything
because.. i don't need a reason to. I just will.
(too much Coldplay? naw)
Change.
Staring at the stars I wonder whats behind them - whats behind us
I don't know whats behind me, nor do I know whats infront of me
I live by the minute, terrified of time's next move
Unknowingly making the move myself.
Life is written by others so many times,
describes as a passage or a gate we need to get to, or discover
I'll tell you what you need to know about life.
You don't need to know anything.
Fuck my phylosphies and others, fuck everything. Instead of playing hide-and-seek, instead of guessing everything thats surronding us, instead of doubting the essence of our creation
just live
just feel
just..enjoy life. don't think about it, it should come naturaly - and it does.
You only ignore it
Look at who you are and appriciate it.
I am tired and exhausted of tring to think and think and think. its because i don't need to.
come join me if you want because im pretty lonely over here.
come and live with me, come and just laugh at the absurdity of everything
because.. i don't need a reason to. I just will.
(too much Coldplay? naw)
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