Sunday, October 31, 2010

unknowingly

sometimes, the person who surprises you the most is yourself.
i know i offered myself a lot to think about by simply being. i always gathered id be a party person, because i am a crowd person and am the living soul of all thats fun and joyful. Thats what i think atleast. Yet I am possibly always at the most awkward and banal situation in parties; always finding myself out of place and uncomfortable. I seem to not recognize anyone through the mist and personas they have created for themselves, just to fit in.
Ive always thought as myself as confident, yet the first interview i do i am not aware of one word i am saying. After all, everythings easier once you dont have to do it.
portrayal of a denial, i tell myself.
then again, talking to yourself isnt a marvelous start.

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