Teenage moodswings & A brain that won't SHUT UP

Combined, both are lethal and are killing me.  Making my insecurities and vulentrabilies shine proudly in my head, I am obviously not feeling in a great mood.
I'm weird. I know I am. Im no Lady Gaga and I am not as bold, but I know that I somehow can't explain myself to the world.
I think Im rather smart, but my facade or my bubbly personality tones it down and thats where they all human eye comes in and sees me with rash thoughts and judgments.
I don't care. That's what I tell myself, because I strongly believe in the amazingness that is not caring.
Knowing who I am and knowing that the people who I care about know as well, its pretty much all that matters. Sometimes, though, because of my moodswings and teenage insecurities it all breaks in.
The doubt, the loath, the hate. Drowning like a rock thrown at the sea, its hard to get out.  Obviously I resent myself in ice-cream = the answer to every major problem in life. Calories don't matter when you're in The Infamous Resentment Mood.
It could be two or three days, but I resurface. Like any typical human being, we got our downs and ups.
Resurfacing is great. Like I haven't seen sunshine in a while. Like a turtle coming out of its shell.
This is silly, I know. But you learn to drown yourself so deep in despair, that when you can finally come out you realize how much stronger you feel.Radiant. Prominent. Pungent.Everything is the opposite.
The hate is love, the doubt is confidence, the weakness is power.
Life's great, and you know it. Life's hard, but you must trust yourself to know that you will fall and yet raise and tower better then you've ever been.
Life may throw rocks and pillows at you, its how you handle the rocks and pillows that defines you.
That may seem out of place, but to me it makes sense. Whether or not humans will accept me, or whether i'll have the Samantha charm to handle life, Im gonna be myself. Im gonna live. Im gonna have faith and hope.
And im fucking not gonna care about what anybody else says about it, and for the record
I'll do it all with a smile.