Friday, August 26, 2011

Can only hope, can only dream

Finding balance, finding happiness, finding love. Finding. Looking. How bout just living?
Acceptance. Self-actualization. Reaching out. psychology, philosphy, learning, living.
Everything is written, everything is remembered, yet everything is forgotten - but nonetheless great to achieve.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Tired

I shouldnt be tired. i shouldnt be so exhausted of everything, but i am. unhappiness does that to you. it leaves you restless, it leaves you wanting...keeps you waitin. waiting for a break, waiting for the silver lining, waiting for anything.
my soul is tired. i am tired. my eyes sink into the deep dark bags under them, and seem to stay there. unwilling to open themselves to the horendous reality that was created by me or the world.

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Confusion

Everything change, yet nothing does. A lie hidden is a lie told. Words are said and things are done, and I'm not sure I'm following. Movies dictate that once you find the one, you don't let go - but life says otherwise. I wish that that I'd know the end of life the same way I can predict the end of movies, but I can't.
There's so much left to say, and so much already said.
Movie-biography of Audrey Hupburn was stunningly good, and the grace and feminine counture that I assume she had was captured by Jennifer Love. Her delicate movements each tell a story of a woman's life, and considering how limiting Jennifer Love usually is in her acting, it was a joy to watch.

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Batman and Joker dedicate their life to taking each other out, because although their characters state that their looks are nothing alike, they psychologically fit as well as an old glove.  Bringing justice and order is what Batman does, and destroying it all is what Joker aims for. They are the yin and yang to each other, they are the balance of the world. Justice can be done just as well in the dark as in the light.

Batman's mask is one of him using his left-over humanity, Bruce Wayne, for the world to fall for the playboy act. It is common that fans would say that Bruce Wayne died the day his parents did, but what if he didn't? What if Bruce Wayne is simply being surpressed, or is just broken? What if he's in an immortal state of a child not being able to grow up because of the traumatizing condition he was stuck in?

This would support the claim of psychologist -- that Bruce's wish to become fear itself - to become Batman - was a childish respond. 'They scared me, so I'll scare them.'

Batman is the essence of an adult; of what Bruce was never meant to be. Bruce is therefore not able to become Batman, because he was meant to grow in the light, whereas Batman grew out of the dark.

Parents died, and there was a number of paths Bruce could have choosen. He could have become a villian, he could have rooted for blood and death, or he could have simply moved on. He choose vengeance, but he didn't choose the law's justice like Robin did.

Did I just analyze Batman?

I'll stop. Im sad. Bah.